I cannot let my anxiety rule my life! Two quotes I need to hear:
"Its not stress that kills us, it is our reaction to it." Hans Selye
"Anxiety is a thin stream of fear trickling through the mind. If encouraged, it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained." Arthur Somers
I am so sorry to the people who I have hurt or ignored. Stress is not an excuse.
Although I am encouraged by all of the wonderful things in my life, I have no idea why I feel the need to sabotage the people in my life I care about the most.
This semester has been extremely stressful but I honestly think out of supreme selfishness - I've seemed to make it worse. It stops right now. I can't keep putting off wonderful friends and family in my life because I am just "too busy" or "too overwhelmed". I don't want to continue the pattern of self-sabotage. I really want to be free from anxiety.
Again to my family, friends, and boyfriend - I am so sorry for the way I have treated you, please know that I am working on it.
And to myself - it's going to be okay.
And to anyone else who struggles with anxiety - please know you are not alone. you are not crazy (well maybe just a tad) God does not make perfect things imperfect. we need to trust that "he will make all things right according to his good will". This is a new day, a new beginning, a new adventure.
